On Painful Changes and New Beginnings

I had to leave Halcyon. It's something I've been thinking about for a while now, but I waited until I was sure. Weighed all the pros and cons, talked it over with friends, and finally made a decision.

Things are changing around at my workplace. The biggest change is that I'm not allowed to work from home any more, which means I have to wake up earlier. With Halcyon's late raid times, I wasn't getting enough sleep. I tried to work around it, but I was still exhausted all the time, which isn't good for my work life or my social life. For this reason, I made the decision to find a guild with earlier raiding times.

Leaving was tough. I could hardly sleep last night because I felt so horrible, and when I woke up this morning, I was stung with painful regret. I had to mentally repeat why I made my decision so that my internal bully would stop beating me up. I've always felt like this when I left a guild. It's like a mini-break-up; in most cases you know why you did it and that it will be better in the long run, but you're still sad about it. It will still dominate your thoughts for the next few days. Every once in a while a doubt will sneak in and you'll beat yourself up about it.

I've joined a 10 man guild called Rocket Surgery. They're actually pretty high-ranked, they've got a cute name, and they needed a main spec tank. They raid much earlier and fewer days per week, so I should have more free time. I'm actually pretty excited because I'll have a few hours of winding down time after the raid (trying to fall asleep immediately after raiding can be frustrating). I might actually have time to exercise!

I'm also excited about joining a hardcore 10 man. The smaller raid size has always interested me, and I feel like I can reach more people if I focus on 10 mans in my blog. It also seems like most hardcore raiding bloggers belong to 25 mans, so I might be able to bring a different perspective.

I'll miss Halcyon. I'll miss the only other lady tank I've had the pleasure of playing with. I'll miss the girls' chat channel (Rocket Surgery has no active female raiders). I'll miss complaining about casters in melee chat. I'll miss strategizing in tank chat. I'll miss talking back to my raid leader. I'll miss the epic feeling of a 25 man and the guaranteed buffs. I'll miss the army of warlocks. I'll miss the My Little Pony chats. I'll miss yelling at the other ferals to keep faerie fire up. I hope I can stay in contact with them.

So here comes Sunnier, the newest bear tank on Whisperwind.